How I wonder

It has been a while since I last wrote, since I get the chance to on-line, since I get the time to exercise, since I get  the time to do whatever I feel like doing and ever since the last time I get to spend some time for myself. It really has been a while. Ever since I was small, all I ever do is read. But the funny part about me is that I hate reading text books. I really don't have the "Thing" for text books. I read all types of books, but the most thing that makes me inspired is anything that got to do with fashion. I spend most of my money in books about fashion, clothes, shoes, accessories and many more, learning how to sew is the best thing I had learnt so far. Even though I only know how to sew ONE thing, but the passion of learning more is always there.

In this glamorous high-tech world, I tend to save more but end up spending more. I tend to browse more than buying. But the thought of buying is still there. I'm a graduate with a Bachelor in Economics major in Finance, but I just don't see where it goes. The passion towards finance is not as much as I do have in clothes. I design most of my clothes. The passion towards writing is much more than I have in financial economics. Wondering how did I pass? I'm good in numbers. I'm creative. That is what I am. I'm creative in designing things that helps me in mathematical equation. I'm creative in re-arranging the numbers, creative in colours, creative in themes, creative in algebra. That is what I am. I can multi-task more than a personal assistant can ever do. Sometimes I wonder, how do other people live their life? How do they know what they want to do? How do they ever know what they want to be? 

Fancy thinking where I would be in another 5 years time, since I don't have much time thinking about the future, the thought of knowing that I am not a teenager any more. Sometimes I just wonder how most of my friends think if getting married. Have the get what they want? How do they even know if he is THE one? I wonder sometimes how a big decision get to turn up into not a big deal but actually it is. How some people can face it so easily without being stress out or being hurt? 

Questions have always been in my head, knowing when the answer will pop out. But, knowing that it is all within me. I'll just have to wait then. Wait till the time comes. There are times for everything. Just don't rush, we'll see it best.