How I wonder

It has been a while since I last wrote, since I get the chance to on-line, since I get the time to exercise, since I get  the time to do whatever I feel like doing and ever since the last time I get to spend some time for myself. It really has been a while. Ever since I was small, all I ever do is read. But the funny part about me is that I hate reading text books. I really don't have the "Thing" for text books. I read all types of books, but the most thing that makes me inspired is anything that got to do with fashion. I spend most of my money in books about fashion, clothes, shoes, accessories and many more, learning how to sew is the best thing I had learnt so far. Even though I only know how to sew ONE thing, but the passion of learning more is always there.

In this glamorous high-tech world, I tend to save more but end up spending more. I tend to browse more than buying. But the thought of buying is still there. I'm a graduate with a Bachelor in Economics major in Finance, but I just don't see where it goes. The passion towards finance is not as much as I do have in clothes. I design most of my clothes. The passion towards writing is much more than I have in financial economics. Wondering how did I pass? I'm good in numbers. I'm creative. That is what I am. I'm creative in designing things that helps me in mathematical equation. I'm creative in re-arranging the numbers, creative in colours, creative in themes, creative in algebra. That is what I am. I can multi-task more than a personal assistant can ever do. Sometimes I wonder, how do other people live their life? How do they know what they want to do? How do they ever know what they want to be? 

Fancy thinking where I would be in another 5 years time, since I don't have much time thinking about the future, the thought of knowing that I am not a teenager any more. Sometimes I just wonder how most of my friends think if getting married. Have the get what they want? How do they even know if he is THE one? I wonder sometimes how a big decision get to turn up into not a big deal but actually it is. How some people can face it so easily without being stress out or being hurt? 

Questions have always been in my head, knowing when the answer will pop out. But, knowing that it is all within me. I'll just have to wait then. Wait till the time comes. There are times for everything. Just don't rush, we'll see it best.

Graduation Day

The last piece I wrote a few weeks ago is regarding on school. As time pass by, everything flies. I finished my Degree programme. 3 and a half years sounds long but yet so short. All the memories & friends that I have made through out the years has made me a better person who I am now. For all the things that I have learn and all of the mistakes I have made. It changes the perception and my thinking thought of who I wanted to be. Graduation day have always and will always be a big deal for me. Even though the mistakes that I made throughout the years has made me graduated alone, but being tough and sticking to myself has made me strong. The will power that I gain has no other competitor to bring me down again. My childhood was not as magnificent as other people have. I have been through some rough edges since I was small and being independent was what I have always been. I have always been growing up in UiTm Shah Alam. It is one of my home. My father works there for more than 20 years and I have been there since then. I was a big fan in sleeping and eating in his office back then. It has been my home.

In 2005, I have finished high school and got accepted in one of the Matriculation College located in South Malaysia. I was enrolled in 2006. 10 months is all it takes. Being too close to home always, have make me home sick. I finished my first week with tears rolling down my cheek every time I lay in bed. 10 months have passed by, I finished Matriculation and got accepted to one of the local university in Malaysia that is Putra Malaysia University. Enrolled in 2007. 3 and a half years. Closer to home. How fine. It was awkward at first since its a new place. Had tonnes of fun. The greenery has no comparison. Mother nature has done a great job building up the birds and the trees. For once I feel proud of where I have been.

3 and a half years pass by. In the hall I did cried. For once I brought my dad to a new place. For once he came as a visitor. For once, I feel that I have made him proud. I graduated in a place I never knew I could live and survive. Thank you to both and my lovely parents. I will always love you both till the end of time, and I plan to make you proud even more! This will never be the end, there is more to come, a person I will become. I love u papa. I love u mama. Thanks for all the support and encouragement for all these years.

I LOVE YOU. YOU ALL ARE MY HEART, MY LOVE & MY SOUL!

School

When everybody hears the word “school”, lots of thoughts come stretching in our mind. Monday blues. Laziness. Confusion. Dates. Exams. Classes. Lots of think can come into mind. Apparently, no one realize that school is the best part. Thinking of ending school year faster is usually the normal thinking cap for a teenager. Wants to live their own life and be free. Once we’re done with school years, there’s no way to turn back. By the time it’s just too late.

            Some teenagers hate going to school. This occurs when they got mix up or hook up with the wrong person or friends. Friends come in two. One with good influence and another with bad. The good ones will help them go high to the top. To reach what they are suppose to reach. To achieve the most valuable thing in life. Education. Without education, there’s no where to go. Only the lucky one would survive. Nowadays, not everyone is being lucky.

            Bad influence friends are friends who would mess up your life. Destroy the things and thoughts that are precious. Doesn’t respect you for who you are. Always keep you in the middle. Then, teenagers will tend to have a grudge feeling towards their parents. These are because sometimes friends manipulate the situation that is happening. It was suppose to be simple and easy to handle. But then, friends always have this one type of vibe where they can just make you feel stuck in the middle and follow what they say.

            When the end arrives, it’s too late. Some survive with dignity, and some survive with honour. The unluckiest one get left behind with no where to go. No where to work and nothing to do. Remember. School is important. Even though we dislike the first day of school. Education comes first. Maybe we feel that at one time everyone is against us. There will be a time and place where everything will fall to places. As what mark twain once said. “Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, great”.

Life

The world is round. It spins on its orbit consisting of 365 days. Well, this is all what life is about. We will live through it counting the days of our life until it ends. Life is so complicated. Some say it’s nice and some say it’s full of spice. Sometimes it doesn’t go the way how we want it to be. That’s when choices came into the picture of our life. When we grow up, we tend to make a lot of choices and sometimes the life that we lead insist us to make certain decisions.

            Life can be cruel. No one tells us what to do. No one tell us what to say. No one tell us where to go. Then, we will be hanging by the moment all to ourselves. Thinking how cruel life can be. Thinking why it happens. Thinking why life is unfair. Asking and repeating the question all over and over again. At one point, some people come to a conclusion where wanting to end their life and by not letting nature takes is place.

People say follow your heart, but apparently for us to do and act rationally is by thinking using our brains. Some just got lucky by following their hearts but the consequences that they have to face in the future is sometimes dreadfully awful to live with. Who says things cannot be change. Of course everything happens for and with a reason. Nothing is impossible. Drastic things happen is one of the reasons to teach us the purpose and meaning of what living in this world is all about. We learn from our mistake.

Life is full of wonder. Like how the Walt Disney movie pictures life. With the flowers growing and the wind blowing taking peoples breathe away. It’s how we think that determine what life is all about. It’s how we play our roles that determine how happy our life would be. It’s how we react to the things that occur that determine how well we can handle our life. Life is short. Live life to the fullest while we still can.

Bon Voyage Abang!

As time pass by, everything flies. How hard to see that things are changing as it may seem. I was suppose to write this entry last two weeks, but mummy didn't have time to pay the bills. Ended up with words stuck in my heads. This entry is made especially for my dearly beloved big brother. It was hard on us for him to move away, but it was time. Last two weeks on a Wednesday, we helped him packed up some small little things of his stuff to put into his car. He drove down to Johor, where he would be starting work there the following day. We went for our last lunch together but with no daddy. Daddy was out of town for 4 days on the day he went away. As he wave his hand out of his car when he left, there was this sad tears and sadness deep down in our hearts. Adik faces me and I said "one down" Adik continues "two more two go!" then sigh. Mummy said "What la both of you, don't worry, we will go down and visit him". Adik and me was stuck in our room for 2 days. We had no idea either to cry or what. I just lost my very dearly best friend. To a start of a new beginning. Today, was the day we just came back from Johor after helping him moved on Saturday. Delighted spending time together on Saturday was the greatest time of all. It heals the wound at last. We made a move to Johor at 10am. We arrived there nearly 2pm and helped out with his stuff. 

As you can see, gods gift on Saturday is that the sun doesn't shine so bright since it is fasting month. Thank you god for easing our pain of moving and for the movers as well.

Jad reversing sis car since the lorry driver wants to put the lorry in to avoid the stuff from breaking and when it's closer it's easier.

Papa and sis trying their best to open the sliding door so that it would be easier for the movers to carry in the couch and sofa's and washing machine, but sadly they try to hard and no sliding door are opened.

Mama and sis talking about how to re-arrange the kitchen while they are IN the kitchen. 

Jad with his best buy mirror and towel hanger! 

This is what happen when you are a part time mover and part time BBM-er. Hilarious indeed. Adik helping Jad carrying the iron board upstairs after a long day.

After a long day of moving, we break fast at one of the restaurant in JJ Tebrau City named El-Migos. Actually we wanted to have dinner at Manhattan Fish Market and the guy threw us away. Anyway, El-Migos is nicely well done. Two thumbs up for the food and decor.

Me tasting El-Migos cuppies. I love mine more! :)

Me and my El-Migos Strawberry milkshake! yummy! 

Adik and Jad with their dinner!

My dinner! Grilled chicken with macaroni!

Jad and sis eating their dinner!

This is one of the poster at Guess Kids outlet over there. Mummy told sis to always come here when she is preggy, so that the child will come out cute like this one! The kid is adorable!

Adik and Jad after dinner. Sad, we didn't took a picture all three of us..:( Till then.

xoxo

Life of being Me

As you all know that currently I'm working with HSBC Data Processing for 6 months top following the United Kingdom working hours. Hence the working hours, being me has been really hard. My night is your day and your day will be my night. My working hours starts from 3pm to 12am. Today is my 6 months day of working here. Yeaaa...6 months old in HDPM sounds easy, but seriously it is not! Being 6 months here made me realise a lot of things.

(1) I didn't know I love baking. New hobby, cupcakes are cute.

(2) I didn't know that I have so much free time in my life.

(3) Reading and writing has always been my best favourite!

(4) Having a shitty friend, they will never end up true.

(5) I'm so good at spending my money!

(6) Not all your dreams will come true.

A lot more where the lists came from. It just goes on and on. But eventually, it will just turn back to us. You see, when we plan something and sometimes it just doesn't go our way. We will keep on thinking. Why is this happening? They make it worst? and keep blaming other people. Don't we realise that sometimes the root of the problem is just ourselves. Stop blaming other people and just sit back, relax, and look back for just a second. Thinking about the things that have been happening and thinking is this just one way of god paying us back for all the bad deed we have done. I'm happy with what I have currently. I'm happy with what I am. Sometimes it's just one of those process of life that we just have to look back and think and go through with it in order to be a better person ahead. I'm happy to be me. I'm grateful of being me. Sometimes friends do don't treat you well. Sometimes people doesn't return the goodness in you. But yes and always remember that all of these little things is what god use to show us life. Take a deep breath and we'll get through it. We always do. Think the positive side of life and live life to the fullest.  Till then.

xoxo

Fever-ish

These past few days have been such a living hell for me. I have been going through these phases of fever whereby it made me feel more sick then I use to be. Not knowing what is heading for me the next day. Started gym with full intention to loose weight for 2 weeks top! My sister-in-law was down with dengue for 2 weeks, then later my little brother had his tetanus injection and got fever too! They when and spread the whole virus through the whole household, not to put all the blame on them. But yep! their fault! haha. Only went to work for two days and had MC's for another two days and had half day for the last day of the week. A very bad and dreadful week for me. I went back early on Friday because I felt so tired and weak. My ears turn burning red and even Akma told me that my face is firing red too! I didn't even realise that it was that terrible. Last Friday was one day before the Bersih 2.0 event. We even been told to go home straight after work, even our one hour mandatory Overtime was given an exemption on Friday.The traffic was so hectic and annoying. I was so ill and the traffic made me much worse. There was helicopters on air with those spotlights shining down on us as if they were trying to look for prisoners that have just escape, with them spotlighting on us made us feel like convict. I was so scared in the car. So sudden, the driver from the car in front came out from his car. Oh my! What a day! It took me an hour for me to reach home. I was stuck and sick in the car, with the feeling of not having enough air to breath. Gladly arrived home an hour later, had my medicine and went to bed, resting for the day. It took me a week to cool off this cold. Till then.

xoxo

Dear John

Last Sunday I watch a movie called "Dear John". It is the most epic love story I had ever watched. It's so sad I cried at 3 am while folding my clothes. Tragic really. The story was based about a soldier John (starred by Channing Tatum) who went back home on leave fell in love with a college girl named Savannah (starring Amanda Seyfried). When John had to leave home for camp both of them started to communicate using letters, and of course all the letters starts with "Dear John" and "Dear Savannah". Devastating when Savannah didn't replied one of his letter and later replied it with a hurtful one. Stated that she was going to get engaged and getting married with someone else. Sad part, John burn all the previous letter then knowing that his father is admitted into the hospital and died later. He started to clean up all his late father's goods, and when searching for Savannah. Knowing that Savannah married one of her best friend that the leese he would have expected. Again knowing that Savannah was caught up in the middle while making a decision right at the moment about getting married. This movie was based on one of Nicholas Sparks novel. The best. For a rating of 1 to 10, I'll give it a 10!. It touches my heart and my soul. Anyway, Channing Tantum was a heartthrob here in this story. This movie was released on 25 of May 2010. Can't believe I just set my eyes on it now. Thank god it was on HBO, otherwise I'm going to miss it. It's a clearly and dearly beautiful love story. Till then.

xoxo

5 types of bosses and how to handle them

I've once been in a situation where my bosses are most of them cranky for the whole day. Oh my, what a stressful day that is. They have something called the pyramid of bosses, where every boss want to show each other "Who's the boss". Where the higher ranking scold lower one level, and it goes on and on and on. It's called "The chain of scolding". Everyone will tend to try to get close with their boss since they think that it is one of the easiest way to get a promotion or as a pave way for their next career step. Well, according to CBSMoneyWatch.com there are 5 common types of bosses and how to handle them.

1. The Vague One
The character where one who never make their desires clear, confusing.
Pin him down and get details. Ask straight forward, specific and as many questions as possible in order to get the right answer.

2. The Micromanager 
Someone who always watch our move and always concern about their reputation. Get out from under them occasionally. Try to redirect his attention to make him realise that you're a benefit in something.



3. The Bully
They will try to steal every joy that we have in our job. Do a good work that we can stand behind. Whenever at a turning point, give some opinion and let them choose, because they like doing their own decision.

4. The Narcissist
The bosses always think that they are the only person who's living in this world. They change the rule because they wanted to for THEMSELVES. To overcome them you have to present everything through their perspective and always make them look good, from here they will think of you as an asset.

5. The BFF
Being best friend with our manager is not a bad thing. It's a good with a bad thing. The more they like being around us, they will bring us with them along the corporate ladder, but if they are using us to spy on our colleagues or some sort, then we just have to beware.

From what I see, my boss is definitely no.5 and a little bit of no.2. Crazy huh? Well, it seems that I just have to look at my back for quite sometime. Scary and fun at the same time. Never know who will be watching us.

Till the,
xoxo

Wedding Gifts wishlist

As I was scrolling down in yahoo I saw a fine and magnificent article about gifts that people used to give during weddings by The Wall Street Journal. The countdown begins! :

1. Kitchen cutlery set.

Well, here people give more towards pots, pans, cups and plates. Try giving cutlery set as a change. They say Langkawi is the best place to find all this kitchen ware. I once been to Langkawi, it is a duty free island. There are tonnes of pots, pans, cups and even cutlery set being sell. They called the place as "chocolate heaven". The chocolates are tremendously cheap. The perfume are cheap too! But sadly I didn't notice any branded clothes or attire, they definitely are sure to be cheap too. Normally people fly their butt all the way there for cooking ware. We should try once too!

2. Home Bar ware.

Sadly, Malaysian people do not drink. So as far goes the home bar ware. But they are definitely cool. You see, we don't have these types off culture in Malaysia but it is sure cool to have one of these sexy glasses at home!

3. Electronic or Camping Gear.
This is something new! Electronic stuff is normal such as blender and shredder, mixer and iron or maybe kettle, but the camping gear is cool especially for the guys! Guys love camping, when we give one of these, they will exactly feel that even though they are married they still do have times for their buddies.

4. Bath Towel.
If we realise that late in the 80's they do give away bath towel with an embroidery writing "Selamat Pengantin Baru", nowadays it's so hard to find these towels. Only in old shops such as PKNS. Even now they don't even put towels as the bridal gift during wedding any more. I can't really imagine people giving it as a gift.

 

5. Family sized barbecue grilled, bamboo baths accessories and Sports gear.
A family sized barbecue grilled is to die for, especially when trying to build up a new family. Bamboo baths accessories are cute for the interior of the bath room. Sporting gear are so in especially for the gym junkie.

6. Multi purpose Cast Iron Dutch Oven
For camp fire cooking. It'll taste just as the same as home cook meal! When you are at home, it will be as if you're on a camping trip. How romantic.

7. Grill and griddle
Chicken grill, fish grill, lamb grill! You name it! I have one at home. My dad was totally excited when we bought it. So we had fish grill, then chicken grill, then fish grill again, back to chicken grill and then prawn grill. It's sure will be the best home starting present ever!

8. Kitchen Aid Mixer
Doubles as a pasta maker, meat grinder and shredder. Cake mixer, cookie mixer and also bread mixer. This is so much better then a blender I guess.










9. Karaoke Machine, Italian Lessons and Limited Edition Art Prints

 

Having a Karaoke Machine in your home helps to feel how was it to be young again and it will never be too late to have an Italian Lesson. Hanging a masterpiece in our home makes it more lively and homely. Simple things to help decorate and bringing up a new home.

10. Beer mugs, a stove top grill and leather cooking gloves

11. A remote-control party cooler
And yes it does go from one person to the another to serve beer.

 
To have the exact English house look.
12. Candelabra and silver frames

13. 12 and 8 quart stock pot
These are especially for the soup people. People who love cooking soup will definitely love these stock pot.

14. Remodelling supplies
Closes friend will definitely help in remodelling a home. Especially newly wed that just bought their dream house or maybe redecorating or remodelling their existing house. The perfect gift.






As the list goes on and on, with different ideas of the perfect gift, different people have different points of view. As for we Malaysian, as usual. Pots and pans, cups and ladle, books and frame. And for sure all those presents are indeed incredible and valuable in order to start a new life. Till then.

xoxo