The Resigning Thinking Thoughts

My last post was in January. Not quite really proud of it. Well, here goes nothing. To all my readers out there.  I am officially jobless for a month top now.  Never would I thought writing would be this much fun as I thought that writing would bare the causes hunger and pain of all emotional disastrous moment that one can define. Feeling rather better indeed. I have stop working last July right after I got my offer letter to pursue my Master degree in Economics from The National University of Malaysia. It was the best resigning moment but it wasn't what I expected.

Late last March when I was on holiday, I have gotten to know by one of my colleague that my department is closing down and moving to Calcutta obviously without the team  we are all in. There was this business planning going on without us noticing due to our high rate of turnover throughout the years. Imagining the whole new gang that was just brought in by my boss. Well, we were all been given a choice of either to resign totally from the company or to move to another department where all our extra income will be cut off but all of us have not much choice actually. 

We were all are given a retention bonus since we have to move to another department unwillingly. So, my friends and I had this brilliant idea to move to another department and take the money and leave. Having this full course head banging idea was what we called. I did applied to another department with another friend of mine hoping that the interview would be a success. That was during in May. Thank god I did pass the interview and the funny yet very nice Manager wanted me to report in fast. Sadly my friend didn't pass her interview and that let the both of us hanging wandering what would eventually happen next. 

A few days after I went to the new department located in Cyberjaya. Having a farewell with my old team was the hardest thing it could be. Especially after 2 and a half years with them, it took more courage than I thought it would be. With all the cries and tears, it was worth it. One month in the new department was like not really hell or heaven. It was hard to make new friends and new people to act them up like our family with spending everyday with them for more than 8 hours top. As time goes by, it was already a month. One people had resign a one month tender. Than later another one with a one month tender. Then there goes my shocking feeling after I got the offer letter. It was hard for me to see my awesomely handsome yet nice Manager. He was the best. The way he greet people was slightly different in all the ways and he really do know how to make people feel to always come to work. 

One Sunday I came up to him and told him that I was leaving with a 24 hour notice. It wasn't a pleasant look from him but yes it was dreadfully sad. It really doesn't feel right breaking peoples heart. I was the third to leave and I know I put him in a difficult position but I just had to go. I got half from my retention bonus but I was grateful. I was thinking, better leave now instead of putting hopes on others more. 

When he did the team meeting. Everybody was shock and it was not what like I expected. People was so kind. Some even feel so sad that I'm leaving even it was only a month. My boss especially even gave me my card for remembrance of the good old days and never I saw someone walk away with that. Some even came up to me and say "come back, we are open for you always" It was totally like a Titanic scene with all the tears AGAIN for the second time. Life just has to go on from now. 

Till then,

xoxo